First I want to say thank you to the amazing people that are subscribed to this page and an active presence in my life! By starting Spicy Wellness and creating this content, it's helped me gain so much confidence. This has turned into a creative outlet for me to express myself and take charge of my sensuality. 

I have so many fun ideas on how to expand this concept, develop new themes and videos, and streamline my digital platform. Everyone who believes in me from the begininng is truly such an important part of my life. With your support and motivation, I'm able to thrive as an independent, single woman who embraces all the complex desires in my mind and body. 

For many years, I've charged fiercely forward into my activism, my artwork and the challenges of living in New York City. I've somehow felt like I'm 'too much' for most environments. Sometimes I feel pressured to make myself small because the allure of my presence makes others uncomfortable. I've had to pretend like I don't see the wandering stares at me, studying me, my body, my style. 

Society often tells women to be demure, to be innocent, fully naive... but whenever I tried to fit into that narrative, I've ended up feeling manipulated or like part of my personality was being suffocated. However I recognize that the attention I generate is a special type of energy, and that's powerful. Now, I can stand before an audience, and a camera, without looking away. Rather than pretend like I'm not being percieved, I look directly into the lens and flirt back. 

Why? Well life is too short to suffer in timid silence. 

Thank you for your patience as I'm exploring all of these things for the first time in a public way, trying to find a balance between being sexy and intellectual. All while my reality consists of juggling many amazing social impact causes, exploring a new role at the United Nations, redistributing food and clothes, and planning my next humanitarian travel journey abroad... 

Please stick around and grow with me. I think as people we are all dealing with expectations others impose on us to make us feel small, and even telling us to suppress the erotic parts of our personalities. There is always a time and place for everything, but we cannot pretend that the judgmental, rigid walls of 'professionalism' or 'purity' are effective barriers. What we need more than ever is communication, honesty, and safe healthy outlets for our deepest feelings. For me, the internet is that safe space for me to turn my daydreams and private moments into an intimate digital world for us to explore. 

I never want to be the kind of activist that abandons herself in the struggle to make the world a better place. I don't always get things right, but I never regret taking a risk. Being brave is bold, it inspires others to overcome limitations, and it oftentimes leads to a stronger connection with the right people who understand. It's a privilege and honor to know that if you are reading this, it's because you care enough to understand me. 

Here's a photoset I captured at the start of this week, and I love how naturally relaxed I am here in my element, because I know my hard work is paying off. I am springing into Spring with a sexy, strong outlook. That's why I look and feel amazing! Don't you agree?